Long Week

Been away from this blog all week. I had started to build up some momentum, and then got derailed a bit. The tibetans fell off, my morning programme of meditation got either sacrificed or massively condensed, it was not great. I felt really tired in the mornings, and was falling back to sleep when I woke up. Trying not to go into any judgment about it.

Anyway, good to be back. I had a busy few days of meetings in my somewhat new post as West Coast Creative Director for Vis-A-Vis. Spending two days at a conference table where you're not really ever the center of attention is a discipline. It was great to meet all the people from the client, and very interesting to see what's being done. I always find that I have an explosion of ideas for a client when I imerse myself in them that way.

Then it was back to 300FeetOut for Thursday and now home on Friday. Next week will be a little more normal. Though I'm going back to a four day work wee to see if that will work better for Nina. I need to see how it will work for me. Always a balance.

Meditation is going really well. The intro at our home on Monday was amazing and seems to have moved a number of people towards attending the Seminar. I feel so ful of love for all the people in my life, and I'm finding that the more I can get out of the way, the more I can serve them, give to them, be in service of God and love. And that's what I want, more and more in my life. Is to be of service.

What I'm coming into is an age where my work, my creative output and endeavors, are no longer the thing that defines me. I love them, and I will continue to be engaged in that work as it earns my family an income and stimulates me in a way that I fing very powerful. And, what I'm really learning how to lean into is making my spiritual life truly first. I thought I had started to do that in the past, and now I'm really learning what it feels like. It's quite something to be letting go of that part of my ego that is so attached to 'who I am' as defined by that work, those thoughts, that persona. When I'm actually none of that. I mena, I'm all of that, and none of it at the same time. All I am, all any of us are, is light and love, when you get right down to it. And we're in this material existence, and we're hopefully doing some great things while we're here, and we're not what our material existence displays of us. We're so much more.

Finally, a few words of gratitude for the people I have come to be surrrounded by. Some are doing amazing work in the world, others are doing amazing work simply by being themselves. I am starting to see so much more clearly what a gift each relationship is, what amazing teachings they all hold for each and every one of us, and how much I can learn.

In love.

Day of Distraction

Found it hard to get down to some real work today. It was a good start, Tibetans, the sitting and journaling. Mostly good times with Fiona and Mary before we left. Then a good ride with Ben, good connection with someone from school, where I spoke from a place of real depth, and once we reached the City it was really hard to get focused. There were the wireless issues, couldn't deal with email, then when I was finally getting service and I was online I had a few things to handle for the part time gig, and some emails to respond to. It felt like I never ended up with a solid block of time in which to actually get anything done. Do you ever feel like that?

Meanwhile, I'm taking a photograph each day, not so good with the uploading to Flickr as frequently. Trying to post here every day, which is definitely giving me insight into how it would be to be writing a business blog. I'm now thinking weekly or twice weekly updates will have to be plenty. Maybe a daily photo. My Twitter feed will be up there so there'll be constant content. The meatier stuff will need to be consolidated.

Speaking of meat, I've also been vegetarian since the first. Feeling really good about that choice. And I think it's helping me feel lighter and better about what I'm eating when I eat during the shake days of the cleanse. Feeling like I'm going to stick to it.

Another Fine Day

Starting off another fine day with more Tibetans. Today I'll bike into the City and work at the M-Line offices, then bike over to the Fell Street house for an afternoon with those peeps. I hope to complete a few documents for the Center before I go over. This is the second day of fasting on this cleanse I'm doing. I think I'll use that to make today a second 'Buy Nothing' day, except for the $2 I'll spend on the bike shuttle. I don't know where this is going, and I'm attempting to get into the discipline of blogging first by forcing myself to post whatever I've got. Not that anyone's reading right now. My vision for this is that this blog remain a personal area for musings on my spiritual path, what I'm learning and how I'm transforming. I'll share it with some. Then the lovejoycreative site wil become the home of Benjamin Lovejoy Creative Person where I'll write about business, art, being a freelancer and consultant. ALso show work, experiment, art, photography, etc. Time to wake up the bean. Of course, this will also include schtuff abut being a daddy, though I think I want both to include some of the other. So the personal one might mention something about work, the work one might include some mentions about being a dad and spiritual seeker.